I don’t think I have been this happy in months! 8, 9, maybe even 10 months! I took my life and flipped it over, and it has been the best decision I have ever made. I am not doing track this year, I love track, I love running, and I love competing, but I do NOT like being told what to do with my life by my coach and I do not like being yelled at every day for not getting a second faster and I do not want some man telling me to run faster harder and better when he himself needs to go run. I do not want to be forced to run in region again because I wanted to go to my brothers college graduation and they said it wasn’t important, I don’t wanna go to state so yes I will run slow in region for a reason. lol I fooled the crowd so well, didn’t I? AND I WILL NOT LET THEM CONTROL ME LIKE THEY DO TO THE WHOLE TEAM.
I will quit my job even if no one understands because I want to enjoy my last year and a half in high school. I do not want to clock out every night and 12 fall asleep at 1 am and wake up at 5:30 everyyyydayyyyy. I want to be able to hangout with my family on a sunday I want to go to my boyfriends basketball games on tuesday and I want to go longboard all day saturday and go do crazy stuff at night that one day I will tell my kids about. I want to be FREEEEEE. I want to control my life, and not have a schedule on the break room wall tell me what I am gonna do with my week. I want to have funnnnn.
I want to cut my hair, everyone needs to stop telling me not to. I can do what ever I want with MY hair.
I want to go shopping and spend all my money, I want to go out and not get back in till the break of dawn, I want to paint my brick wall in the backyard, I wanna go spend a day by myself in the forest, I WANNA LIVE MY LIFE.
I am changing so much in my life and I love it, Being a star athlete, having lots of money, or following everyones rules will not get you any where in the happy department. I refuse to turn 60 and look back at my childhood and be like dang, my high school time SUCKED!
I AM CHANGING AND I LOVE IT!
